1st...I am being held, surrounded in a whole body hug by a huge hand. As I nestle within the safety of this hand I am aware of a beautiful light and the distant image of the person holding me. I become aware that I am about to leave the peace of this place and I hear myself pleading to be allowed to remain. He tells me that I need to leave for a short time, but He is always with me. I feel His breath blowing gently all around me and then quite suddenly I am in darkness, wrapped in something that seems to be stopping me from moving. I cry out. I feel myself being lifted and light appears. I see a room, a bed, several people. A woman on the bed. The man is shouting.
2nd..A circular room with three doors, Jesus is in the room. I continually go in and out of this room. When I am in the room I am always aware of the Lord there with me, and when I am in there I long to remain yet… I find myself going through the doors. Once I go through a door I then have to search to get back through that door and into the room with Jesus.
Sometimes it’s easy to find the door, sometimes it is difficult because in the search there are so many distractions turning my eyes away, causing me to lose the door again. Distress, pain and anguish can lead me to the door very quickly, I go through and peace descends, I run to the Lord and He envelops me, and I feel myself lifted into His hand, I am safe, the doors are gone.
3rd...I am conscious of nothing except blackness that surrounds me, my eyes cannot see anything. Suddenly a pin point of light, then another, my eyes are searching, seeking out more. Points of light become blocks of light illuminating what seem to be bars, the light shines through but I can’t see around the bars. I long for the light to be uninterrupted, I long for the bars to disappear. The light pushes through until the light causes the silhouette of the bars to vanish. I am surrounded by light, there is no more darkness, no more fear. The light is so much bigger than me, an armour of light surrounding me wherever I go.
(Romans 13:- 12The night is nearly over; the day is almost here. So let us put aside the deeds of darkness and put on the armour of light. 13Let us behave decently, as in the daytime, not in orgies and drunkenness, not in sexual immorality and debauchery, not in dissension and jealousy. 14Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature.)
The bars can still reappear if I lose focus on the light, they are my distractions but if I keep focussed they will melt away. Why do I choose to regularly move my focus? Sometimes the pull is so strong, yet my desire is to remain in the light.
(Romans 7:- 15 I don’t understand myself at all, for I really want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do the very thing I hate. 16I know perfectly well that what I am doing is wrong, and my bad conscience shows that I agree that the law is good. 17But I can’t help myself, because it is sin inside me that makes me do these evil things. 18I know I am rotten through and through so far as my old sinful nature is concerned. No matter which way I turn, I can’t make myself do right. I want to, but I can’t. 19When I want to do good, I don’t. And when I try not to do wrong, I do it anyway. 20But if I am doing what I don’t want to do, I am not really the one doing it; the sin within me is doing it. 21It seems to be a fact of life that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. 22I love God’s law with all my heart. 23But there is another law at work within me that is at war with my mind. This law wins the fight and makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me. 24Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin? 25Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord. So you see how it is: In my mind I really want to obey God’s law, but because of my sinful nature I am a slave to sin.)
Sometimes a door can appear and I must make a conscious choice NOT to go through, I only avoid going through by focussing on Jesus, on His light.
WHO ARE YOU? DO YOU KNOW?
I AM THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA, THE BEGINNING AND THE END. WHEN YOU ARE IN MY LIGHT THERE IS NOTHING ELSE.
I INVITE YOU TO COME TO ME, AND YOU DO, YET, YOU DRAW AWAY.... DON’T GO THROUGH THE DOORS OF THE WORLD, KEEP YOURSELF WITH ME, I AM YOUR LIGHT, I AM YOUR PEACE, I AM YOUR JOY, I AM ALL YOU NEED. ALLOW ME TO LIFT YOU UP, TO HOLD YOU IN MY HAND, TO SURROUND YOU WITH MY LIGHT AND TO MAKE ALL DARKNESS DISAPPEAR. SEE YOURSELF HELD IN MY MIGHTY HAND AND YOU WILL INDEED LIVE WITHIN ALL I HAVE PROMISED YOU. YOU WILL BE ALL I HAVE PROMISED YOU WILL BE, ALL YOU ARE “IN ME”.
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